I have recognised the fact that I need a swift kick to the head to give me some common sense. However, there isn't anyone around me right now to do so. Therefore, i continue on in my denial. Want to know what this is all about? It once again relates back to being more sick than i want to admit to anyone and to myself. It's bad this time around and i'm getting a little scared. I just don't have a good support system in place in order to go to the hospital or the doctor here in Winnipeg. If i don't feel any better in the next day or two, i promise i'll go to the hospital. For the time being, i feel like i am dying: every joint in my body hurts, i have extreme fatigue, i'm scared to eat because i just end up in a certain room of the house for hours after i eat. I push myself through my shifts at work and barely make it through, and if this continues, i know my grades at uni will slip as well. Just please pray for me over the next couple of days it would be greatly appreciated.

It's just one of those days where you feel like writing something for the sake of writing something. Honestly, nothing interesting has really been going on in my life over the last few days. I had the house all to myself for a good chunk of the day, and i'm not going to lie, it was very nice! However, i was glad when Ashley came home from school......wait a minute, we did have an adventure this afternoon. I was outside getting some air because it was a lovely day today and i hadn't been outdoors all day at that point. Anyways, Ashley comes out to keep me company. We are standing outside in the side yard when we see this kid come running by the house and past the neighbours house. This kid stops in front of the neighbours house and throws a couple of eggs at the windows and goes back running down the street. This neighbour literally comes flying out the front door of his house and asks us what the kids look like and where they went....all of a sudden the kids go running down the opposite side of the street and the neighbour is yelling at the kids to come back. If i were a kid, i would have just kept going, but these kids were not too bright. These kids actually stopped and came back to the neighbour. Ashley and i made our exit into our backyard once more when the neighbour started yelling at the kids....we could hear him quite loud and clear from the otherside of the yard. So, that was our afternoon adventure.
I work my normal 4-7 shift in the afternoon tomorrow and then church somewhere on sunday and then in the evening, Ashley and I are carving a pumpkin for the fun of it and putting it in our front window. So, the dull comes with the good, so i just have to keep on plugging through.

In a Quandry

For the most part, I really enjoy the house where I live and my housemates...I couldn't ask for better ones. However, one of my housemates is a grade 5 teacher and tends to treat my other housemate and myself just like some of her students. It gets to be a little annoying at times. I'm not sure how to tell her either. And she asks every single day who i have talked to on msn that day (mostly meaning "have you chatted to anyone from camp?"), and now her latest question "Do you have any news on your new internship position" Ahhh like most days "NO" because my internship placement class is only once a week.
Don't get me wrong though, I love my housemates, but it's been a while since i've lived in such close contact with girls like that...even in Luton i didn't see my uni flatmates nearly as often....Maybe God has a something to teach me through this?

1 Year Ago

Yup, 1 year ago or 12 months have passed since Karen and Christine introduced me to a thing called a blog. I wasn't too at the time how great of an impact this discovery would be to me, but a year later I have found it to be an invaluable source. A lot has happened in the last year, and I'm glad I've been able to capture some of it down on here over posts. So, today my thanks go out to Karen and Christine for helping me set up my account on this thing!
This weekend finds me in the hometown of my roommate. Her town is only a 35 minute drive from the city, but it has been nice to escape the busyness of the city. We have started a 7 movie marathon and just finished The Core (not bad but very unbelievable). After this weekend, assignments begin to be due on a regular basis and then its all downhill until christmas break (which begins in like 1.5 months...yikes!).
Have a great weekend folks and hopefully chat with you all soon.

What to do?

I found out some pretty discouraging news this week. It looks like I won't be going to camp in January to do my internship and I won't be back at camp in May for the summer either. Yes, I was pretty upset to begin with, but now I feel at total peace about it all. The Lord knows exactly where I need to do my internship and everything will come together in His time. I sometimes forget that there is in deed a whole world outside of the realm of camp life. People around me have been really supportive about everything...if you want to know the whole story, just ask and i'll fill you in personally. So, please pray that I will actively listen to God's voice and prompting as to where he wants me to be in January.

Weekend Commentary

This weekend has been extremely event-filled. I spent the weekend with my roommate Ashley for pretty much all of it. It all started out on Thursday night when we came up with the idea of building a fort in the basement by utilising the space underneath the pingpong table. We had quite the set up going complete with 2 queen size mattresses underneath the thing. We slept in our fort all weekend. We also had 2 laptops, a T.V. and lots of munchies to complete our fort.
On Friday afternoon we did a stake out of a person who we found out works at one of the shopping malls here in the city. we were a little shocked to see this person working where they are because Ashley is having a hard time finding a job and this person got a job with no problems.....maybe Jesus has a lesson for Ashley to learn through this. My car also broke down on Friday almost in the middle of an intersection on a very busy street. My lights were flashing to signal troubles and i had to call a tow truck to take it to the mechanics....it shouldn't have broken down because i've only had it back from the last mechanic at home for only a week now. Anyways, the car was thankfully an easy fix and I was able to get it back first thing on Saturday morning. Saturday was a pretty laid back day. I worked on Saturday evening (same old firty man asked me "Are we at your place or mine tonight?") and it was busy, but we all were able to finish on time.
Sunday was mine and Ashley's "big" day of the weekend. We went to a 9:15am service, and the church we went to was great. I actually know some people at this church and may become a regular attender there. We went back to the house after church for lunch, but by noon we were out of the house again and went down to The Forks Market for a couple of hours...we went to Sugar Mountain and walked around the buildings for a bit. After The Forks, we went and walked down Broadway Avenue to see the Bears on Broadway display...we walked from one end of Broadway to another....it was great! After that, we went for a little drive through West Taylor to big house dream and then headed over to the zoo. We attended Boo at the Zoo with a bunch of people from camp, and it was so much fun. Lots of laughters and screams were to be had: being held up by werewolfs, goblins, aliens and hobbits throughout the zoo. We walked through the zoo twice. And to cap off the evening, we went to Boston Pizza.
Very fun weekend with no school work involved, which now means I have to get my act together in order to accomplish everything that is due this week. Oh well, the weekend escapades were definately worth it!

Website of the Day

A friend told me about this website: www.ratemyfart.com a little crude, but more than entertaining for a true laugh. My roommate and I had a good laugh with the top 10...check it out if you don't get offended too easily.

Old Flirty Men

Thanksgiving Monday in a very swanky seniors complex was absolutely crazy for me and my fellow coworkers yesterday. We had 3 different sittings for dinner yesterday, and all 3 were full. We even had 8 servers on when we usually only have 6! It went smooth enough i suppose, but we didn't finish until later than usual.
One of my favourite residents at work is a pretty big flirt for such an old man....he did a right proper job of making me turn a dozen shades of red last night too. He comes up to me after dinner while i am clearing up a table and gives me a side arm hug like he often does. He then tells me that last night he had a dream about me, but the dream was dissapointing because i chickened out on him in the end! HORROR for me, but everyone else who heard it had a good laugh at my expense. I think Peter was pretty proud of himself for coming up with that one.

Back in Wpg.

I arrived back in Winnipeg late this evening from Caronport. I had a great week at home. It was so very needed for me to not really have to do anything that I didn't want to do. I was able to take it easy, have some good God time and also watch some senseless t.v. and movies. I will admit that I was filled with mixed emotions to come back to Winnipeg today. It would be so much easier to stay at home where it is safe and comfortable than to come back to face the uncertain and comfort zone streaching. However, God doesn't always use the safe and comfortable in order to deepen our relationship with Him......I have found with me that he usually uses the uncertain and out of my comfort zone times to really strengthen my relationship with Him.
Tomorrow is a very full day because i work 8 hours, so i think i should be getting to bed. I just wanted to let you all know that I am back in the city safe and for time being "sound".

Giving Thanks (in all cicumstances)

Because it is thanksgiving weekend, I thought I should write a blog dedicated to what I have been thankful over over the last little while. Sometimes it is so easy to get caught up in all the chaos and not so pleasent things in life, that you forget the good things that are right in front of you and things that are taken for granted. So, here is what I am thankful to God for over the last little while:
1. An amazing and very supportive family. It seems no matter what crazy idea i seem to think God is telling me to take on next, I have an awesome family who support me through it all and are also there to help me pick up the pieces if an idea doesn't turn out so great. Yes, my sisters and I don't always get along, but we still love each other. My summer at camp withn Alissa really helped our relationship a lot. I got to see a side of her that I had never seen before and just her love and desire to show kids how much Jesus loves them. It wasn't always easy for her to stick things through at camp and i admit, we gave her a very hard assignment one week. She did awesome through it all, and i'm so proud of her....can hardly wait until next summer....might have both my sisters at camp.
2. For the opportunity God gave me to be at camp this summer and to be streached in every single aspect in my life beyond what I thought was capable. It was 16 weeks of continous learning about myself and the Character of God. Believe me when i say when you don't think you can go on with things any further, God will pick you up and brush the dust off of you and tell you that you can keep going. Also very thankful for the people I met while at camp and the blessing they have been to me since camp ended.
3. This last year took me to England. I can not be thankful enough for the time I spent in Luton. A piece of me misses it and the people there every single day. All of you from England who read this, I want to say how much each of you have blessed me not just while I was there, but since I have been gone. I pray for you all regularly, and you are never far from my thoughts at any one point in time. We are all spread out now, but it doesn't mean that the friendship and care is any less. Keep pressing on where God has placed you for this time period in your life. God is going to work great things through you all. Love you loads.
4. Despite the rough start i have had to being back at U of M, I am thankful for the professors that I have and for the genuine care and concern they have shown for me and what I am doing with my academics. The opportunity to learn from brilliant minds is a gift and shouldn't be taken lightly.
5. Overall, just thankful to God for keeping me safe and despite the crohn's disease and bad knees, i am relatively healthy. I know it shouldn't take an official weekend to realise what I am thankful for (and believe me the list could be longer), but I wanted to say it properly for a change.
Blessings on all of you this thanksgiving weekend (no matter if you celebrate it canadian style, american style or like last year in england style)

A Needed Time Out

I'm back in Caronport this week for the Thanksgiving weekend, but that isn't my only reason for being at home. As a lot of you know, my week home between camp ending and uni beginning was not exactly stress free. My stress level carried over into my first month in Winnipeg with uni. It has not been an easy adjustment to being back there at all (to say it simply). So, i've been pretty sick this last month and in short, i'm feeling pretty rundown and exhausted physically, emotionally, mentally and yes even spiritually. My time at home is suppose to be a relax time and also some intrapersonal reflecting time. I have a lot of big descisions to make over the next 2 months that do affect more than just me, and i'm really not looking forward to it. Please pray for me in general over the next little while.
I am going to admit that eventhough i am back in caronport, it is quite nice to be back here and just "be". My dad and I had one of our amazing father/daughter chats in his office this afternoon. We talk about all sorts of stuff that pertains to my life and his life...they are not the same over the phone! And then this evening, it was the return of the NHL finally, and we have been watching that together a bit (our favourite team is playing tonight - the Vancouver Canucks). So, this day has been good. However, my pastor's wife saw me in the hall today at the college and told me i looked exhausted and that i needed to take it easy and go home for a nap. I haven't seen her in over a month and she tells me i look terrible....great....oh well, i knew the truth before hand. That is one of the reasons why i am home!!
Well, it is getting late and i need some sleep....all part of my taking it easy strategy. I think i'll watch some Fraggle Rock on my laptop and fall asleep to that.

The Boyfriend

Do not let this title mislead you all! This is not about my boyfriend or therefore not even my lack of a "boyfriend". It is however about meeting the" boyfriend" of what I am now going to assume is one of my gay classmates. I met up with him and his "boyfriend" in a grocery store much to his surprise. I don't think he was quite preparred to meet up with anyone he knew from university. It was very awkward and uncomfortable, but I still need to show Jesus love to these people as well. Our conversation didn't last very long because I was almost finished grocery shopping.
In other news, i am taking my roommate ashley back to her home town of Kleefeld for the day tomorrow. Her brothers are alone in the house and need someone to cook for them or else they will starve. Quite humorous because the call came in at 11pm and they actually wanted ashley to return this evening already...that didn't happen.
Once more in other news: I get to go home on Tuesday for 5 days! i am very excited for this and i am hoping i can get away with not bringing any homework with me for the week. i am actually thinking this is going to happen becuase i have nothing sure for a few more weeks. Although, i could take this time to get somewhat more on top of all the assignments that will be piling up shortly.
I hope everyone is doing well. Remember, Duct Tape cures all!