Struggling

The thought I am about to express is something that I have been struggling with for a little while now. Every time I start to feel like I am really starting to belong here and have a full sense of peace about being here, some one with out fail will call me a crazy foreigner. I know that the way they say it is in jest, but it makes me all the more aware that ultimately i really don't belong here in the long term of things. I am going to have to go back to Canada at some point correct? Don't get me wrong, i love Canada and i consider myself proud to be Canada. It's just that for the first time in a really long time i feel like i have found a place where i can truly be myself and really explore where God wants me to go in life. This is the first place where i have had the opportunity to be truly independant from my family. Yes, i have lived on my own for long streaches at a time, but i've always been in the same city where i have some type of family connection living there as well. I've appreciated that, but there's something completely unique about living no where near any family at all and not even in the same country that gives you a greater sense of independance. For those of you who have never lived abroad before, it might be a little difficult to understand where I am coming from. I geuss i'm venting more than anything else right now, and i really shouldn't let stupid insignificant comments get to me like that, but they do.

Right now, i'm really trying to figure out if i should stay here through the summer and try and get a sports internship some where. I would love to work with a Christian organisation over here just to get the experience, but its all in God's hands. Maybe at a summer camp or something...just through the summer months i think. I'm going to wait until after the CSRM conference in April to apply for the working visa. I'm just really trying to enjoy where God has placed me for the time being and enjoying the new experiences that i come accross most days with living in a different country.

Blessings,
Jana