Don't know quite how to start or even how to phrase what is on my heart and mind right now. I think i may have messed something up when i should have left it completely alone. I don't know right now if it will be alright or even if it is repairable. I haven't been in this sort of situation in a long time, and to be honest, i don't like it at all - uncertainty and tears are something i do have experience with aplenty, but not like this. I am trusting God to work through this in me and that it will be a lesson worth learning even if i don't see it as such right now.